Pain suffocates your thoughts and bars you in a dark room of isolation. It suffocates the passage of the windpipe and makes it hard for you to breathe and you barf your every thought. At times, you are unable to drink even a sip of water, it leads to numbness, lack of sensation, lack of feeling, paralyzing your senses pain rules you. Firstly, you fear of being isolated, but then, you want to punish your fear too.
Isolation can be a better option then, but it leads you nowhere, it makes you count your pain every mini second. Though isolated, but not alone, you, crowded with all your absurd thoughts, counting and listing your pain. Then you feel like to release your pain but it is so much into you that it make you lose "You" and slowly slowly you are lost in the fog of pain.
Though the layer within your skin is cold but you feel feverish, your body temperature is normal but your state of mind is sluggish. Partial amnesia knocking your brain down, making you forget what you are up to and what you were doing and why you are breathing and everything else. When you feel dead, breathing seems pointless then. You dive in a boiling pool of oil, and try to burn the scar of the heart. Your chest, the ribs, your heart crackles in pain, your stomach contract, trachea is blocked by pain leading to suffocation, unable to breathe. Your brain tissues can feel the pinch now, unable to think.
You want to cry loud, you want to cry hard but then later you realize that even your tears, your every drop of tears has had solidified and now you feel betrayed;
At times, your upbringing, the likely approachable situation does add to your personality, your thought process, your past, your following reactions; it also supports you to overcome your pain. But, sometime it can also adversely bully you to the extent of committing suicide.
You think you have found the ultimate solution of killing the pain but it is contagious. You may happen to transmit your pain to others. So instead of killing the pain, heal it. ( Killing Yourself is Easy, Try Something Difficult. )
If you can smile then share your smile, and bet to have the most beautiful smile ever. If you can write then share your writings, you may heal the pain of hearts of hearts loitering in the crowd of millions. Indulge in other forms of art. Coddle yourself! Stay connected! Stay connected to your soul, stay connected to your smile. Respect yourself! Respect your being. And Do Trust Time!
© Neha R. Krishna
